Monday 25 June 2012

Day Zero

Feeling very depressed and disappointed in myself.

Friday 15 June 2012

Day 5

Well, I have made it to day 5!  Unbelievable!  It's been a crazy week I must say.   I haven't had much time to think about alcohol. ...well okay, I did a lot.  But between coaching soccer, finishing report cards and graduations....I've kept sobber! 
Now, it is Friday...  Weekends are a whole other story.
Off to work!

Tuesday 12 June 2012

Day 2

I'm not sure how I pulled through this day without a cold beer.  It was extremely difficult and I feel like if it's this difficult everyday, I'll never make it. 
I got home after work and went right to bed.  My hubby let me sleep for 2 hours.  I woke feeling very anxious and thirsty.  I had the worst craving ever.  I made it to supper and then drank water.  I thought of booze every second, it seems. 
Last week, I went to a natural health food store and the woman there recommended I take a natural herb called GABA with Vitamin B.  She said it would help with cravings and give me a sense of relaxation that I search with alcohol.  I took 2 at 6ish this evening.  I must say, I felt energetic and quite happy.  I played with the kids, got my housework done, and have energy to work on my report cards (which are due Friday). 
I feel happy that I'm sober.  The word EMPOWERMENT popped up into my head a lot tonight!  I honestly thought I'd cave into this demon that is surrounding me. 
Sorry, I wasn't able to rotate picture.

I'll try this again for a few days and hope that it gets easier.  I know I have many challenges ahead of me.  It will especially be tough when I go to camp again next weekend. 
Goodnight for now!

Monday 11 June 2012

Day 1

Getting ready for work!  There is so much I want to write about!

10 PM  I'm finally sitting here to relax.  It was a very busy evening so I was able to keep busy and not have a drink today!   It was tough after coaching my son's soccer game...  I usually like to have a night cap to relax and get to sleep so I'm doing good.   Have a great night!

Sunday 10 June 2012

Alcoholic searching for help!

Hello! I'm new to the blogging world! I am a very positive person and try to enjoy my life to the fullest extent. I have 3 beautiful healthy children, a great career, and a good outlook on life. I am able to do anything I put my mind to ...except quit drinking! I have been to a 21 day treatment centre, tried AA groups, left my husband, read many books...and I still find myself coming home after work looking forward to a nice cold beer or a glass of wine! Today, I've been hungover and exhausted from another late night of drinking at camp! It sucks. I've been looking at many different blogs, trying to find people to help me through this. I want to quit really badly! I'm tired and my body is tired! I thought if I reached out to people out here, I may end this drunken journey I've been on all my life and I may even be able to help someone along the way! I want to share my story with my friends, my family and anyone who is seeking the same thing I'm seeking! Freedom! Jen